Sophie's Space

When I was younger my brother was always different (not necessarily in a bad way) he had a horrible temper and 8 out of 10 times he would lash out and hurt me. My mum and dad took him to see lots of different people and we were always told that he was a naughty boy with bad anger issues. It only came into light during February 2012 that he may have autism, as soon as this was confirmed (November 2012) everything changed.

I didn’t know what to do any more, it was like living with a completely different person. The previous 13 years didn’t matter and I became very scared and withdrawn. I no longer knew how to act around him, we were constantly walking on eggshells because the slightest thing could set him off.

He is also very violent towards mum and gran and I began to worry, I was (and still am) losing sleep over this. I got angry and snappy with everyone, even innocent people who have done nothing wrong to me and I felt like I couldn’t control it because no one really understands. They can give their views on it but because they have no idea, because they aren’t experiencing it themselves they don’t really have any right to comment.

We can get through this if we stick together and find someone who knows what they are talking about. I see lots of professionals and they all give their opinion and tell me what to do because they think they are helping but they often can’t see the reason behind why I do what I do but I know I am doing it right because if you follow your instincts and do what you think you should, you end up feeling safer in the long run as you have pleased yourself not others. That is the best thing you can do.


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